My grandmother, better known as Nanny Jean, passed away this past weekend, and before I had time to think or feel I found myself on a flight home to New York.
The service was yesterday; it was more of a memorial than a funeral, which was a relief to those of us - like myself - who aren't so big on "mourning". Family and friends came back to the house afterwards where we gorged ourselves on everything Italian. After telling what felt like 30 people about my life in LA, I felt drained. I stole away to my brother's bedroom to get some rest and recharge.
As I laid in my brother's bed attempting to sleep, the brevity of mortality hit me upside the head: A lifetime isn't very long at all. And yet, it's long enough. I've got all the time I need. And I've got no time waste. Struck by this paradox and the reality that "life is short", I felt compelled by urgency.
I've got the hunger; I'm chomping at the bit to indulge, express, create, and share. I wanna' use this life up and take advantage of all the world has to offer. I want to exhaust my potential and extend beyond my self-imposed limits. I want to rock hard, travel far, love fully, and live courageously. Mostly, I want to be of service; and leave every person, place, and situation, better off as the result of my having been there. I believe that by doing the former, the latter will be accomplished.
And so it is with gratitude that I say goodbye to Nanny Jean. And it is with certainty that I commit to being the courageous, loving, worthy leader I am, living the life of fun and abundance that I deserve to live.
And so it is...
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Yes Granite, and so it is! The days pass for me, oh too fast and the years they fly. I support your vision and urge you to do all that you say you wish to. I would never want to see you in the same place or at the same J O B for twenty years. I never can understand how people do that. Where is the growth?
In my opinion, we are here in this life to make a difference. Make it big! I love big! Big will always get some sort of reaction. Its usually the minimum of WOW! Turn it upside down and you'll know who this comment is from. May Nanny Jean be at peace. Be well... M.C.
I am so lucky to be yours :)
Thanks, MC.
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